I emailed Patrick that if he would like to meet me, my schedule will be busy starting in July, so we should meet up soon if he wanted to get together.
He replied with how he felt at the thought of meeting me:
So here’s what I say. If you’d like to get together sooner rather than later, I am good to go. Here’s the funny part – I’m getting all nervous about it. “What will I say?” – that doesn’t seem to have been a problem so far. “What if she doesn’t like me?” – too late for that, you dumbass. It’s like I’m going to the Junior Prom; it’s absolutely ridiculous. I WILL NOT be bringing a corsage.
He had one condition for us making it a calendar date.
One more thing (and this was going to be a short, quick note). I’d like to hear your voice.
So to figure out the details, I needed to schedule a call. I, too, felt nervous about calling and meeting. Butterflies. Butterflies in my stomach. Everywhere.
I was supposed to call yesterday morning after returning home from my Aunt’s house. But my cousin scheduled a last minute morning hike that took longer than expected. I tried to make the hike more adventurous and interesting for my 7 year old nephew by imparting wisdom about metamorphic rock. As one can never hurry a 7 year old who is excited about rocks, the hike took longer than expected: intrigued, my nephew wanted to stop and ask me about a different rock every five steps on a hike.
In the meantime, Patrick sent the following email:
Just before you call, I would like to point out that what we are doing is the very essence of romance.
When I finally called, he grumbled, “You’re late!” But he laughed immediately, so I knew then that it was only feigned anger.
We talked for nearly 2 hours.
I felt both relaxed and confused by the end of it.
During our call, he said, “You are less than half my age. There can never be anything romantic between us.”
He also said, “I knew you weren’t expecting this out of your Craigslist posting, nor was I.” (But doesn’t that mean some feelings are there?)
And before we hung up he said, “I was very nervous about the idea of meeting you, but now I can’t wait to see you.”
M thinks perhaps Patrick is downplaying the romance to avoid setting expectations before we meet. He did say something in a previous email about that. Along with he gets the importance to “strike while the iron is hot” in response to my availability diminishing in July.
I don’t know what to think. I guess I will find out soon. Our date is Saturday.